Europe

It’s been 3 months since my last post. So what the heck. I might just decide to revive my blog?

So, i went on this trip with this thinking, “who the heck am i going to meet here, friends? Yea right.” Apparently, i was wrong. To an extent, i could not believe the amount of friends i made on the tour. Counting to the exact number, i made 48 new friends on the tour. Australians, Indians, Egyptian, South Africans, Indonesians and even an Italian! After the trip when we stayed in Paris, i missed wake up calls, i miss Chris’ talking, i miss Fabio’s driving and i missed waking up and having breakfast with the group of friends i met on the tour.

From the start, i first talked to Swan and his family, Bee, Matt, Alex and Ben. It’s just introduction and all. Next came Ron and Shawn, i sat with them on the same table on the first night for dinner. I got to know them. Then, came Chloe. And slowly, i started to interact with the rest. Through the whole trip. There were a few i was very close to. To a point, goodbye was something i could not say to them. Through the whole trip, i have learn more about different country’s culture and way of living. Making new friends, was something i would never have imagined.

With people of different age group, height, size and countries, we all blended together very well and for once on a tour, it felt like family. Getting to know people like Joe, Liny, Nicole, Shelley, David, Rachel, Len, Elsa, Michele, Victoria and others really changed the whole trip a lot. We had lots of fun with Poker, taking pictures, talking and bullying Brad! Oh speaking of Brad, i really miss him now! Damn. Anyway, having made all these new friends, i hope i’ll keep in contact with them. I really hope, that our friendship will last!

Especially one  in particular, Chloe Middleton . Through the whole trip, i spent more time with her than i did with my family. I talked to her almost everyday, i helped her with her pictures, we just did many things together. It’s really, a blessing to have her on the tour. Without her on the tour, i don’t know how it’ll be like for me! Even though, 1-2 of the days, we had a little of disagreement or “argument”, everything still turned out well! Glad we spent time together for 4 hours waiting for the invisible fireworks in the cold.

Another would be Joe and Liny! Even after the tour, we went to Paris Disneyland together and enjoyed ourselves. And they will be coming to Singapore often, so we can hang out, amazing! Really would want to hang out with them when they are around. At least there’s someone we can meet once in awhile! Oh. Spending 4hours freezing and waiting for the invisible fireworks!

And also, Len, Elsa and Michele. At the start of the trip, we did not really talk a lot. It was after Rome, we started interacting. For one reason or another, Matt and I were seated beside Michele and Brad on the bus. The night before, i was tipsy and was going crazy singing on the bus. So Michele started talking to me asking me how was I. Then came the video of Brad! Because of that video. Michele and I began talking. Even with Len and Elsa! We had so many laughs together. So we started talking more, to Michele and Len. And i learn things from them as well. Also, we spent New year’s eve together waiting for the invisible fireworks for 4 hours in the freezing weather!

Anyway, i really want to keep in contact with all my Cavalcade friends. And i’ll upload the photos on the Cavalcade account soon! Sorry to keep you guys and girls waiting! I’m missing you all already! xx

Friends

Finally Graduated from Greenview Secondary School. Time to leave behind the memories we share.. Here’s my gratitude to the people whom made an impact in my life in secondary 4 (:.

Joey Lim Jun Na – The person whom has been there for me for the past few months. The one i really look to when i need help. The times we share, the laughters and the talks we have really mean a lot to me. Meeting you changed my life. I really am glad to have met you. It’s a whole new world with you around. At times we have arguements and cold war, but we come back stronger, much stronger than before everytime. And thanks for everything, tolerating with me and being there for me. I’ll always be here for you no matter what. You can turn to me whenever you want. Thanks besty, love ya.

Jaylus Lim Tian Soon – 4 years of brotherhood. What do you expect? Being there for me all the time. Talking and crapping about stuff. Without him, my life in greenview won’t be all that great. 4 years of being in the same class and all, really helps. Really glad to know you. You are always there for me and listen to my crap. Giving my advice and all. Thanks bro, love ya ~

Ling Wei Sze – Even though at times, we have some cold war or arguement with each other. We both come back stronger than ever man. Going through thick and thin really was not that easy. But with you around, i know i can always count on you. Talented at maths, guiding me whenever i need him. Reason we’re brothers, is cause we understand each other. Another would be cause, MANCHESTER UNITED IS THE BEST . Love ya~

Chee Wan Peng – Buddy! I still remember yo. Ever since last year, we’ve allowed our friendship to grow man. Even though at times, we have our different opinions and side of story, but we always figure it out right at the end of it. I know you’re always here. Sorry i’ve neglected you at times. But you know i love you buddy. Stay happy with TianSoon, wish you two all the best (: love ya

Cailey Koh Hui Yun – Chiobu! I mean it la. It was all sincere. You don’t think too much! Hahas. Crazy girl here, really glad to have her as my sister man. I know we had our bad times, but now we’re back man. I don’t lose temper, i just can’t control emotions! TAKE NOTE OF THAT :X Anyway. Thanks for everything k, you are a very good friend. And i deleted the picture already, no more evidence (: love you sis!

Chan Jia Qi – Haiyoooooooo. We had our times, both the good and the bad. Sorry for that period of time, when our friendship seemed to have turned to dust. I really miss those times in secondary 3 when we could crap cause you were right behind me. Really would love to bring back those days. I wish i could just turn back time, and made sure our friendship didn’t topple. And that we maintained our friendship instead of turning it to dust. It’s too late now, but we can look towards our future friendship! Thanks for everything (: love ya baby! ALL THE BEST WITH ~~~~~~~~~~~

Jonathan Liu Yi Xin - Brother from another Mother! Hahas. 2 years of friendship, brotherhood or whatsoever you call it. Really could not imagine life without him. Club wellness buddy, slacking buddy. I miss your house !#$&^% i want go again. Hahas. Really thanks for everything man, love ya!

Sophia Lin Wei En – A period of time, our friendship was something that meant a lot. It still does mean a lot. It’s just that we don’t really talk as much as before. Given a chance, i’d bring back those days. D2I, mrt rides. Miss them man. Really wish you all the best in the future (: let’s catch up some day. Love ya daughterlin!

5L4G – The group of friends, whom i really survived on from sec 1 till now. Adeline, Cheryl, Valarie, Jiaqi, Maeve, Johnathan Chear, Darrel Song, Tiansoon. Sorry for the neglecting in sec 3. I just wanted to move on with another group of friends. But in the end, i knew you all still meant a lot to me. Really sorry for the times i didn’t go with you guys. If i could turn back time, i would have gone. But now, we’re back together like last time. Not as close, but we still are. Thanks for everything. Love you guys a lot man!

That’s it i guess. Those whom mean a lot to me. It’s getting late, i better catch some sleep. ALL THE BEST FOR O LEVELS GUYS/GIRLS. YOU CAN DO IT (:

sad, confused, troubled, stressed.

Things really hasn’t gone all that smoothly for me. Certain things, i just wish wouldn’t just happen. But i know, it can’t be helped. What’s happened has happened. No point getting all worked up over it. It’s just the time it has to happen. Just when a glimpse of hope, and the feeling things are finally falling into place. It had to happen. And then, things just went back to square one once again. I’m just uncertain about many things. Confused, troubled. In the past, people ask, “Keith, you okay?” i’ll give a reply “yea of course” with a behind it. But now, it’s like “Keith, you okay?” it’s no longer a smile and a yes. It’s a no with a forceful tone to it, to really emphasize on how i really feel. That’s how things have to be. Whatever it is. O levels is just 14 days away(Not counting practical). I don’t know how i’m gonna overcome this barrier. But i must.

I just hope, as time pass, you’ll realize things, you haven’t realized yet. Till then, all the best (:

To me, friendship builds on 2 of the most important virtues to me, and to life. Trust and Honesty.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!

HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR 16TH BIRTHDAY YEA

SWEET 16 TO YOU! (:

TAKE CARE AND ALL THE BEST FOR O LEVELS!

Pressure mounting

Been long since i posted. Doing a short one here. Never felt better than i am right now. Been so long since i felt this way. Glad things are settled now, everything really just, came to place finally. So. School and tuition is piling up. I’m like dying cause of the amount of time spent on studies. But really, everyone needs to have a break. Even o level candidates. I should find a day, where i can really rest one full day. Just things to sum the time since i blogged till now. Mood swings yes, F1 was awesome. Lye Kit got to sit at Pit Stop. ): Me and Jon sat at padang. Sound was awesome. Other than that and the fact that i’m dying of tiredness, nothing much to talk about. Going to study with Shawn and Chan soon i guess, wanted to study with Joey. But she decided to study at home. Anyway, gotta go! Gonna be long till i post again! Bye!

JIAYOU ALL O LEVEL CANDIDATES!

Feeling the pressure

Totally not in the best of moods. Many factors add up together, to make my day/week from bad to worse. Most importantly is the fact of how i did for my prelims. English most probably a B4, E maths B3, Combine Science B3, Combine Humanities C5, A maths C6, Chinese E8, Dnt haven’t get back. So if i calculate my L1R4, it’s 21 points. That’s freaking high, and it’s obviously nowhere near my expected target. Imagine getting this for O levels? How screwed will i be. Seeing my prelim marks, i’m beginning to feel the pressure mounting behind my back. The weight and burden on me, larger than what i have ever felt before. So last night, i told myself. From today, 39 days, to the first O level written paper. It’s just 39 days, I have been enjoying for the past 1355 days. Just 39 more days, 39 more days of itense study and revision for the grades i really want. Is it possible? Yes obviously it is. 21 points to 9 points, is it possible? YES. Something i learnt from the motivational workshop, “The past is not equal to the future.” Whatever happened in the past, DOES NOT reflect on how things will happen in the future. We make our own future, the future’s in our hands. It’s only a matter of how we grab it. And i am going to grab it with both hands tightly. It’s the final push and it’s time to give it our 100%.

Same goes to everyone out there as well. Especially those real dear to me. It’s the final push, 39 more days of hardwork, and then once it’s all over, we can have fun together. Let’s start with the basic of listening in class, doing every single homework and all. It’s not that you cannot do it, i believe that every single one of us has a choice, and choices have consequences. It’s a matter of what route we choose. I hope each of my friends will choose the correct path. Cause once we take this path, we must have no regret in whatever happens next. Come on guys/girls, you can do it. Cause i believe you can. If people have not given up on you, don’t EVER give up on yourself.

Thoughts running wild, emotions taking over, mind out of control. Just certain things that are happening. But at the end of it, i still have to be strong and face these stupid things that’s happening to me. Why me, i always ask myself. I guess i have finally found the answer. It’s because i keep thinking that such things will happen eventually(okay, it will happen eventually), these negative things. I try to get it all out of my mind, i still fail. And i always dwell on it more and more each day. But really, who can just push the negative but truth away? Obviously it’s hard, and yes it’s taking effects. Just things running through my mind, About this that and everything, even why the earth is round. Gosh, just too much even for Keith to handle. Shall try to just push these thoughts aside. Esp… Oh well.

Off to bed, last time i’ll blog, most probably till after o levels. Cya peeps! All the best for o levels (:

Friends are so easy to find aren’t they? Friends are like everywhere to us. But true friends, are really hard to find. Especially friends whom really are there all the time, no matter what. One thing i’ve learnt from past experiences. In most friendships, it takes months or years to built, but in a second, this whole friendship can just disappear in a blink of an eye. But the both of us has been through good, and bad times. And when things just look shaky, it stablises again. You call this friends? No. You call this, True Friendship.

O’s O’s O’s..

Okay. Got my laptop back not long ago. How i miss my laptop man. But then. O’s are coming. Got back prelims result today. Some of it at least. A1 for Physics paper 2. C6 for Chemistry paper 3. Wth? Chemistry just pulls all my grades down. Not as bad as chinese though. 44/100 once again, have never and never will improve. So, SS was …. 25/50. The rest not yet get back. Hopefully getting them back ASAP. I want see how i did :/ Not that well i pressume.

O levels around the corner. Finally feeling motivated to study. Whole day in school, when there’s time, i’ll drown myself into A maths. Doing the BMSS paper which i have yet to complete. A change? Guess so. Also, i noticed vulgarities seem to be flying out of my mouth like before. Good range of Vocabulary. I must control it man, put a stop to it. I don’t know what’s happening. Might be the stress that’s finally settling in. Time to buck up after the inspirational Motivational Workshop. Really seemed to have an effect on me. Trainers were great, Amin, Benjamin and Danny. Great motivators. Especially Amin~ Oh well.

Time to get off this computer and get my ass back to studying. But i doubt it’ll be possible today. Totally worn out and restless. Doubt i’ll produce any results even if i studied. So i’m going to waste today, only today away, on my computer. From tomorrow on, it’s time to get to work. And yes, this laptop will be a distraction. So.. Found a way. Might be away from wordpress/twitter/facebook for quite a long time. Probably till after O levels. Till then, Cya peeps! And well, it’s time to start studying guys (: Don’t give up!

“All i can do, is do nothing about all that’s happening. Given a choice, i wish i could just change certain things. But i can’t.”

True friends.

 

Recently don’t really have much time to update. Partly because, i’m lazy :p. Anyway, went school early in the morning. Really screw SBS bus service, the bus takes so long to come! Well, so made my way to school. Sat with Jon and Joey for flag raising. Went back to class, silent reading. And then, watched “Freedom Writers”. A real life story, that sort of made me realise how fortunate we are in our class. So after the show. Something happened that dampered my mood. And yes, it was noticed (:. Seems like your observing skills is getting better. And i apologise for it. Sometimes.. Things just get to me. Anyway. Sat with Joey for the concert. She was all excited about watching modern dance. Well, crapped with her before it started. Band played first, wasn’t paying attention. Then came the Malay Dance. *yawn*. Choir was up next i think? o.o First time, i appreciate choir. And then, 2 person performing You And Me – Lifehouse. Was.. Okay.. Drama, another band + canon D on piano. And lastly, Modern dance. Yes, Modern dance wasn’t that bad. There was a part that caught my eye (: Good moves LOL. And yes, really it’s good. So after school. Wanted wait for Joey, tell her something. But.. She MIA. I waited at bus stop for her, and yes, still MIA. So i left first. Bus back home, bathe change, faster rush out to go back pri school. Okay, school was crowded as ever. Everyone in the school, remembered my name. Wth? Like everyone i met, was like “HI KEITH!” and i’m like “errrr” Gosh. Felt so stupid. Met.. Charmaine, Joie, Clive, Jian Hao, Jian Ming, Gilynna. Yup. Talked walk around. Took pics. Waiting for Gilynna send me. So after that, we headed out of school. Went BMC Macdonalds sit. And ate. Gilynna came soon after. Jian Hao left to play basketball. Then we headed off to Vivo, slack around. Gilynna had to leave, family thing. Her BF and cousin left too. Let Clive, Joie, JianMing, Me. So went arcade. Play play play, Clive’s 2 friend come. Then clive’s other friends came, then his GF and his friends came. So we slacked around, walk around, talk talk. Then.. Went Banquet, some ate, some did homework ._. So we left, Jian Ming went home. I stood there 10 mins ,thinking. In the end, i went to take bus 10 home. 1hour 40mins bus ride. Good thing i did :/ Slept, and thought about things, as ever. :/ Reach home, mum made pizza for me. Paul playing Killzone 2. And here i am, blogging! Just want to say, a very happy teacher’s day to all teachers!

Sending my comp to wipe out every single shit in it. And also, send my phone for servicing. Actually.. Wanted to do something else. But guess, can’t. Oh well.

Tomorrow will be a better day, i hope…  Oh.. Take care Joey!

 

There’re things, i really wish to grab hold of, and have a say in it. But i know, it’s just out of my reach. One sentence, will sum things up,

“This is as far, and as good as it can ever get.”

I’m lucky, to have you by my side. Thanks.

 

Pass few days, nothing much happened? Just that, DNT IS OFFICIALLY OVER. DAMN HAPPY LA. Finally the burden is off my shoulder. At the expense of crap prelims marks. So well, today was not bad. Woke up 9.30. Supposed to eat breakfast before leaving to pick Joey up. But the place crowded, decided to go straight away. Picked Joey up. Dad was heading to Mountbatten Square so he send us. Reached there, did paper again. So i got 75/80 for paper one.. Hope o levels also can ): Then did 2 papers.. So tiring. 4+ We left, Joey headed down to Her mum’s friend place meet her mum. I followed. Bus ride proved to be good. Talked things out, about many things (: Reached there, walk her to the block. So as was about to leave, she sms ask me if i eating. So i said yea and she came down join me o.o Proved to be, a very good thing again :/ Once again, and yes, finally. HTHT, Heart To Heart Talk. Things of the past, we talked about it. Everything, almost? Yes, it felt good to talk things out. And exceptionally good, cause i’ve found someone i can confide too, hahas. Good to have you man :/ So sat till around 6? Yea. Ate and talk. So shiok.  So, left and took bus to meet parents at Tampines One, eat Sushi Teh. Eat then walk around. So.. Rooney 10 on away jersey cost, 175 bucks. Gosh. Okay. So headed Tampines Mall, got my membership card for gaming. And yes, talk with dad again. So went down, dad went back up to buy things. And then came down, we left. OTW home.. Heard Force India is in Pole 1. Wth? First time? Yes. HAHAS Hilarious. Wondering how the race will turn out.. Jeson Button must be shooting himself. One more win, he’ll win the driver’s championship. But wth is he doing? :/ Okay. Man Utd VS Arsenal tonight. Down those goners!

Oh.. My dad and i was messaging when i was with Joey. It’s hilarious and stupid at the same time. We were talking about what time dinner. Suddenly, Joey asked me to say that my dad’s a nice uncle. My dad reply “Good uncle only, not good father ” And yes, that shocked me. So i replied “Good father, good husband, good man, good person and have a good son! cool right~” And he was like “A good son, with a good girlfriend, lagi cool right?” Wth. ._. And yes i gave the same answer. Hilarious, and stupid. Hahas. Okay. BYE PEEPS!

“Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer.”

Cause its you, and me..

One word to sum my day/prelims? SCREWED. Yes, SCREWED. Maths happens to be my best subject, and i struggled with my paper 2. And to sum it all up, i didn’t know what the heck i was doing the entire time. Started off the day with an sms as usual. Got up, bathe and had a bad stomache. Wth? Yes. Dad fetched me to school cause it was, drizzling. Reach school, gather. Mother Tongue paper was first. Okay. Tan Boon Yeo kept on encouraging me. I kept falling asleep, and he kept coming over to wake me up and ask me to try my best. Thanks. So rested after that, had Physics Paper. And yes, i screwed it up too. So after physics, some stayed in school. Some went home, some went LP. I didn’t know where to go. So, i heard from Mr Seong, b3/4 for my maths paper 1. Yes, that’s SCREWED too. And then i left for LP alone. Saw Elisah, Ang and Clinton they all there. Sat with them and eat. Then went back early, bought kopiko for Joey and myself. Went back school. Found WeiSze and Mr Seong. Sat there awhile. Went pass the sweet to Joey. And then headed for E Maths paper 2. I saw question 1, and i instantly went blank. There goes my A1. Screw it. I freaking flunk my best subject. And flunk my english too. How bad can it get. Struggled to the end with the paper. It was tough. I felt, screwed. I knew i’ll do badly. It’s just HOW bad. So after maths, i wasn’t in the mood to talk or anything. Took bus back, Marcus sat with me, but we listened to our music. Marcus dropped to change bus, and i just sat and went home. Reach home, bathe and all. Wasn’t in the right state of mind to do anything. Told Joey about it. She told me something that reminded me about what she said yesterday. The, bookmark thing. Somehow, made me think twice and i started to read on history. So sis came back, and we both went dinner. I couldn’t eat finish what was acutally my “appetizer” about 4 months ago. Zzzz. I couldn’t eat finish my Mutton Brayni. Or w’e you spell. It’s like.. Gosh. Wth? Then went back home. Came straight up and read history again. Felt i couldn’t take it anymore. I need to release the stress and anger in me. I can’t accumulate it too much. If only, there’s someone there to just hear me out.. Sigh. If only.. Yes, IF only.. Got to go. Shall continue history.. Or maybe dnt? Idk.. I just need…..

“If one day, you wake up in a red room with no doors, or windows.. Don’t panic. You’re just in my heart.”